My first post... here we go

i started this profile on this site when they didnt allow comments from non members and i wanted to comment on my friend jeremy's site...
and now i'm going to use it, because diaryland is dead to me. dead and rotting...
i've been wanting to write a lot lately and the only thing in my head is this giant thing that hurts to think about, and only comes in unintelligable snatches that are threatening to kill me.

I've been in school for 6 or 7 months now and i m actually almost done, but ever since that bitch of an english teacher i haven't been able to get motivated. i started out my first 5 classes with straight A's (i take two classes at a time for five weeks each, i started with just one class to get into the groove though) and now i only got D's in my last two classes i think because my teachers didn t want to have to fail me. they should have failed me. i wouldn t have complained at all.

i just wanted to pass with a better gpa than high school. right now it's lower. it's depressing.

i just finished reading the dark tower series (again) and am now reading The Catcher in the Rye because ryan won the fight with lili on whether i should read catcher or watership down first. Catcher is a fucking depressing book. that kid is suck a fucking whiner, but it makes sense. all of it.

it feels good to post little fragments of my thinking again... will anyone read me? who knows. do i care? nope, never have... never will...

i alone love u, i alone tempt u, i alone love u, fear is not the end of this