Treasury!

treasuries are a cool thing that i never really got into on etsy... until today. a girl in the forums posted that a few were expiring, so i staked it out and grabbed one up. check it out here.

i like circles. i like triangles too... maybe that will be my next one!

Another Sale!

I had that edgar allen poe word binder up on etsy for what? 6 days? it sold. i'm sorta sad about it because i'm not done admiring it yet :P

i can tell matt is sad too... maybe i'll make him one of his very own... ooh! for his portfolio!! how cool would that be? to go into an interview with a rad binder that is obviously handmade... i don't know, he probably won't go for it, but i know he will go for his own binder :)

i got my schedule from work today, it's super strange... starting at a different time every day... but it will be the same every week. i'm also only getting 36 hours instead of 40, but will be picking up hours at the pizza place so i can have some extra time.

i really can't wait to be able to be at work, out of training when i can work on projects between calls. i have so many planned out!!

I Finished my Edgar allen poe binder!!!

here's a picture of the full scene. it is all up and listed on etsy.com click on the image over on the left in my etsy mini to check out the rest of the pictures and the description. And even purchase it if you happen to fall in love!

i am really proud of this one, and matt likes it a lot too. he keeps looking at it, and i think he really wants to keep it. when i ask him about it though, he says "no, list it, if it sells it sells". he told me to sell it for 100 trillion million dollars, which is about 100 trillion dollars more than he usually suggests i should sell things for :P

This here is a picture that my man took the other day of the cats and their new friend Carl the pigeon. Carl has been visiting for the past two days and is making the cats crazy with hunting lust. the photo itself is really great. Matt usually just points and clicks, not caring about framing, light, or anything, but this one is really quite pretty. he added a painted filter in photo shop and it cleared up Bub-z's reflection in the glass a little bit and it looks really nice

Also, speaking of birds - in a thread in the etsy etc forum the other day a lovely girl said the nicest thing about my shop and my work... and i quote: "Hi RestlesslyRandom,I like your store. It looks like you are a poet! My block comes and goes, but it can be brutal. Glad I have stuff to make! " while talking about being a write/crafter and having writers block and whatnot.

It made me feel really happy and made me feel a little less crappy about never working on my story. it's beautiful, i can see it in my head, but it won't come out... apparently my writing mind still comes out in my craft so i'm not ignoring it completely after all :)

and back to the cutest felted birds ever! i love everything in irischacha's shop, especially the little rabbit. i am going to need to buy one of these eventually... like i need another stuffed animal in my house - i don't even know what to do with the ones I have right now :P But they are way too cute to pass up!

New Job

Started training for my new job today. It was good-ish. i didn't have any caffeine today so my head hurt for the last 2 hours or so. It's a new concept for me and it was a little difficult to begin with, but i think i've got the hang of what has been taught today.

... just wait until tomorrow though! we're adding more aspects. ugh!

I got home in time to see voyager too, which rocks my socks like you wouldn't believe. So now i'm going to work on my Edgar Allen Poe word binder.

i'll show y'all when i'm done with it :D

I want to be treated!

I hate being bi-polar. I hate it a lot.

I try to let most people in my life know that i have some emotional issues, mostly because i know how scary it can be when i have a bad swing and i don't want people to freak out when i freak out.

This etsy thing is allowing me to do the thing i've wanted to do for years, the only thing i want to spend my life doing. when i'm in a low swing i can barely look at my craft table without feeling utterly hopeless about absolutely everything.

when i'm in a Manic swing i have so many ideas going through my head that it's hard to concentrate on what i am working on. I mean, that's why i like pot so much. It slows my brain down so i can actually understand what it is i'm thinking without struggling to keep up with those racing thoughts.

i want some treatment. i want to loose the racing thoughts, i want to lose the depression and hopelessness. lots of places say that those who are getting treated often miss their Manic episodes, but i tell you one thing i know for sure. I would LOVE to be normal. i would love to have an entire month or 2 or 12 go by where i don't cry for an hour and a half for no reason. when i don't feel the need to get high just so i can relax...

new job

i applied at captel yesterday. they called me today for an interview. whoopie!! tomorrow at 4 i may have a new job!

i'm actually really excited about it. captel is relay, just like my last job was relay, but it is a different kind. there is no fraud or abuse and there is no direct contact with the customers. i am completely out of the call and i don't have to be customer service anything. i hate being a csr :/

i'm going to tell the interviewer how much i love doing relay, and i'm sure that will get me in, since i have such good experience from verizon. i only quit because what i was doing was not processing relay calls for the deaf at verizon, i was processing fraud calls for nigerians.

i hope i get this job because i haven't had enough money to buy supplies in months and barely able to create anything for the shop. and i'll be able to get caught up on my credit card bills.

wish me luck!

Finish Things!!

i can't seem to finish things, although i did get my votive holders grouted and most of them sealed... and then posted on etsy. but those are easy... i've got lots of projects started, but all i do lately is bum around.

pooh.

the business will never take off like that :P

<-------Look What I Added!

That's etsy mini. Click on my links and go directly to the item to check out more pictures and descriptions of the items I'm selling.

Everyone always talks about etsy mini on the forums and I just figured out what it is.

Sweet.

Birthday Sale!

I'm running a sale in my etsy.com store in honor of my birthday. 23% off everything because i'm turning 23!!

go check it out!! http://www.restlessyrandom.etsy.com

for my birthday matt and I are going to go to Bluephies for lunch because we've been wanting to go and i finally went and looked at the menu and now we have to go, because i want one of everything.

then we're going to go drink at the brass ring with a bunch of friends, mostly his, but some are mine :D

What's up.

i quit my terrible job at relay and am now back at papa john's full time as a manager. i'm trying to get paid more, but the area supervisor is being a bitch and is now saying she never said she'd pay me more, which she did... too my face. it's alright, she'll get fired soon anyway.

I'm working a lot more on stuff to sell on Etsy.com. i just got a new wood burning tool and have so many more projects planned now. i'm going to probably start trying to promote through here, and other places more so i can get more sales. I would really love to make enough sales so that the income will allow me to work more on this and less in crappy outside places...

Why Quitting School Wasn't So Bad

so i did quit school. and it did feel good, but also bad because i just feel like a failure.

but then yesterday i was at work and one of the operators asked me for something and while i was writing stuff down for her she asked me how school was going. i had told her some of the stuff and she knew that certian teachers were being certian body parts that really shouldn't be named.

so i said to her, in a kind of sheepish voice, "i kind of quit"

and she says "GOOD FOR YOU!!"

she really does talk in all caps. and u should hear her laugh. man oh man. that lady's crazy, and i can make her laugh for almost no reason at all.

anyway, she knew how hard it's been on me and i know she realizes that dropping out of school is not such a good thing but she also knew and recognized the fact that i don't need to put myself through that and congratulated me on the fact that i figured that out for myself.

and i was thinking about it today and i realized that i am not the type of person who gains experience and positions in jobs by going to school, i gain it by working and learning everything i can by working in that field and being promoted because i am so damn good at the job. this almost caused me to apply for a supervisor postion here at relay, but at this time there is a particular supervisor that i would not want to work with on a daily basis, and would rather only work with him one day a week. and i don't want to have to do his stuff and hear him bad mouth me because i never do anything for him. this is how he is. maybe when he leaves i'll apply, but for right now i'm taking it easy.

my days off are filled with chores and video games and television. that feels good to not have to stress myself out and go crazy trying to complete assignments that i may or may not get passing grades on and it has no connection with how hard i work on the assignment. i mean hello?? i used to get better grades when i did my assignments drunk.

that don't make no sense.

The day Spammers Ran Rampant

Otherwise known as Thanksgiving...

The day that your favorite fraudsters from Nigeria and Ghana make a fiercer attempt to get your money.

and you come back home from work and ur email box has 63 new messages 50 are spam just from today...

but i made 10.50 for 10 hours of holiday pay and 15.75 per hour for 10 hours for working the day.

you do the math and see how worth it it really was.

and its the same thing tomorrow.

it may not be a Ton of money, but it's enough to keep me from complaining.

wonder upon wonder

so, since becoming a lop i have had foot problems. i have two pairs of shoes that i wear regularly to walk around (power walk) all day long. both of them hurt my feet in different ways.

today i decided to wear my 4 year old chucks that i got for 2 dollars from st vinnies.

they don't hurt. they have the worst support (visually it seems so) than the two pairs i have. one of which i paid 50 dollars for... but my feet don't hurt. well, they kinda do, but by right now i should be in terrible pain and i'm just kinda like... ehh...

so that's what's fun.

migranes and work

today i had a migrane and today i had to work. i put my hood on my sweater up over my eyes so i could be blocked from the bright lights so i could feel better and finish my shift.

there's this stupid rule about we can't wear anything on our heads... any head covering of any sort. and while i understand and follow this rule - today i had a migrane... and not only that, my supervisor saw me with it, asked me what was wrong, and said ok, that's fine.

but then i get back from break and the lop (lead operator) and the traffic guy attacks me about it. i got upset because i was already in pain and i really don't think it's fair to attack someone who has a valid excuse and an ok from the boss...

i tweaked on them. i told them that i get cronic migranes and if they want me to put down my hood then i'd have to leave because i wouldn't be able to open my eyes.

i eventually got cut - i dont know if because of the migrane or because they decided to cut - but i was still pretty upset. i was actually in the bathroom half crying talking on the phone with matt when judy came in and told me.

my sup asked me what was wrong and i told him and he just stopped listening. he's like 'they were kidding sara'. which is bull. maybe for the traffic guy but not for the lop. i know when he's mad and i know when he's joking. and he wasn't joking.

i just don't like to be attacked. especially when i'm in pain

i'm so fat!!

so since getting my job at the stupid relay center i have gained 30 pounds. and for those few who know me well enough they know that i'm a skinny person, and even with this extra weight i still look skinny. but i'm not.. i don't feel it.

but i can't get motivated to lose any weight. in fact i can't get motivated to do anything. RAH. i hate myself lately.

i shd join the army... shape me up!

Hazel

so why do people shut down when they encounter something that is unknown to them. not only do they not want to know what the new thing is, they don t want to know anything about it that may help the new thing to become less intimidating.
change is not really intimidating. open mindedness either. i just don't understand why it's so hard for people to be open to different and new things.

i can't even count the nbr of times that i explain how to use and what relay is and someone will still be bitching about it in the background to their friends/family they don t know what's going on, they don't understand why the person can't call them. and they don't listen to what the person is saying to them so that they might understand, and they end up hanging up in frustration. makes me crazy.

i'm reading watership down right now. first time. i've been wanting to for years and finally lili convinced me. it's damn good and it's a slow read but i'm almost half way through.

at work

so... i hate nigerians... i have never actually hated an entire people before.

but that was before i worked in relay. and u know i don't really care that they are scamming people, that doesn't bother me. if you re too stupid to figure out that this guy calling u from what he says is new york and he can t even use the english language correctly and all this shit... then they deserved to get scammed.

i jsut don t want the nigerian to bug me while he's doing it. yes i saw that u gave me a nbr to dial pls give me just a moment to dial it u FUCK!! you don t have to submit the nbr every 6 seconds.

GAH...
i hate relay... i really do. but where else can i get paid hella bucks like do here... no where. that's where!